Procrastination and Incentive

I want to say something valuable.

But what do I have to say?

I have so many ideas, so many inspirations, so much I want to do and say and paint and write... and yet. And yet I have no motivation to do any of it.

Sometimes I wonder if procrastination is more a part of me than being a writer or a painter.

And yet.

I want to be the writer everyone wants to read. I want motivation to bring that dream to life.

I want to be the artist everyone wants to have on their wall. I need a spark of inspiration strong enough to take me all the way through to fruition.

Where is my motivation and where did my inspiration disappear to?

I know what it will require of me. I know how to get it back, I do.

I just don't want to.

I don't because it will require something of me. It will require early mornings and commitment every day. It will require willpower and a solid resolve to do what I need to.

When I say early morning I mean 5 am. 6 at the latest, if I really want to get inspiration back.

I want someone to give me the incentive, to want to read what I write. But I have to write it first, right? Well, it's half-written, I only have to finish it. I only have to get up early.

I only have to push myself to want to again.