To Write

So.

I have a new book idea (yay!). I can't work on it yet as I am currently editing my novel "Enchanted Rose" for self-publication this December.

I can't really say much about it, other than I can't say much and it has a lot to do with what has been going through my head lately; regarding authoritarian/abusive families.

I suppose it will be sort of a way to get my thoughts down on paper, what I can't find any other way to really say. Not that it will be "preachy", but more my perspective on that mindset (which is NOT pretty, to say the least :-P).

It's hard sometimes to write down what I am thinking, to really put down all of my thoughts. In a book, however, through the eyes of a character, it becomes much easier. Somehow the character becomes my voice, even if I don't agree with what they say or think.

My fingers are already itching to start typing this new book out, though I haven't even worked out all the details I will need. I love the potential of a new idea.

In other news, I'm starting my costume for Halloween/Harvest Festival soon. :-D Also, 5am is VERY early. :-P

Alas, my writing demands it, and that demand I cannot refuse.

In Which I Admit My (in)Sanity

I need incentive.

That chocolate sundae after a steady diet. A hot bubble bath after a long day of yard work. Vegging on the couch after office work all day.

I really dislike cleaning my room. Well, I dislike cleaning in general, but my room absolutely most of all. All this stuff that I have absolutely no room for. (10'x15' of entirely occupied space, yes.)

So, in order to actually finish cleaning after I committed to start (procrastination - another whole blog post...), I needed to give myself some incentive. So I decided if I cleaned my entire room, I would be allowed to put up my Christmas tree.

I found out several things while cleaning. 1: I really need somewhere to keep all my cloth OTHER than my 3'x5' closet. 2: I have a lot of heels. 7 pair! I'm not just a shoe hog, I only have 1 pair of sneakers, and 1 pair of flipflops. :-P The heels are all their own category... 3:  Super loud music playing through a booming sub-woofer is incentive all on its own. 4: If you tell people you are putting your Christmas tree up in August, they will think you are crazy, and possibly laugh in your face.

I like to tell myself that putting my tree up early really is incentive and worth all the work it took to clean my room. overlooking the fact that I planned to put it up in a couple weeks anyway.

I love Christmas! Even if it turns me into a crazy person who listens to Jingle Bell Rock in June and puts up the tree in August. It's never too early for some

No really. It never is.

Morning Glory

So, I thought I'd take a break from all the talk and just post some photos. :-) These are some pictures I took the other day of some morning glories and leaves. :-D

A black and white shot of one of the flowers, open to the sunlight.

Another one, in full color. They are usually white with the palest shade of pink or blue on the sheen.

Hiding in the shadows

Almost every single morning glory flower has at least one ant or other small bug collecting nectar from the inside.

A small haven in the backyard. The old woodpile and morning glory plants decorating the fence.

I love me some macro photography! :-D

More leaves, in black and white.

So there's my little selection for today :-D What is YOUR favorite subject to photograph?

What If

I'm kind of afraid.

In 1 week my nephew starts kindergarten.

That means I'm out of a job.

My sister wants to become a personal consultant, and I want to sell my art. A marriage of the two talents will hopefully turn into something beneficial to us both.

But before that... Before I am a household name and make $100,000 per painting... (Ok, I'd settle for like $300, but I'm dreaming big, ok?) I'm really not sure what to do.

I need some sort of filler job before my art actually becomes lucrative enough to support me all on its own.

What if...

What if there aren't any jobs?

What if I can't GET a job?

I worry sometimes.

I don't really need much at this point to support myself. I still live with my parents, so food and shelter is paid for. All I really need is to pay for my phone and the 2 kids I sponsor.

But will I be able to? Most of the time I am pretty optimistic... it will all work out, I am sure.

Yet that little nagging thought in the back of my mind won't let go...

What if?